“There’s daytime thinking and nighttime thinking, and both can be good. But mostly I do like nighttime thinking. When the sun goes down, it just pushes us all more inward. It makes kind of a dream come over you. There are certain things that you start thinking about, that you don’t think about in the daytime,”— David Lynch (via liula)
Just coming down off of my morphine i.v. But I’m still on oxycontin, oxycodone, and klonopin…Which I will continue to be on for as far as the eye can see. Really, it’s the only thing that will keep me out of the hospital until they can hopefully figure me out.
Tomorrow I’m back to the Mayo for another full day of tests and labs and specialist appointments.
I’m feeling less insanely defeated and hopeless lately though, so I hope that sticks.