Every time I think I’ve hit rock bottom something else happens.
Cancer? Can’t get much worse than that! This has to be the bottom! Have to drop out of college because of that and multiple lung diseases and non-stop hospitalization and surgeries? This has to be the bottom! Have to live with your parents again at 28 and can’t get a job because of all of it! Oh, this HAS to be the bottom! Meanwhile your parents are separating and every single day you sit around hearing your mom cry and your dad yell and both of them slam shit all over the house! This certainly must be a part of the bottom! Start drinking again. Definitely a part of the bottom. Start cutting yourself. Must just go along with hitting rock bottom! Also gained 90 pounds in 3 months because of medication, which I can’t lose, my disability is taking a lifetime and I’ve been guaranteed it will be denied at least once if not twice before it goes through (IF it does), I have medical bills I can’t pay, medicine I can’t afford, I’m assured my Systemic Autoimmune Disease will continue to spread and cause more and more diseases in my body, no car, over $1000 in delinquent credit cards I can’t pay….
AND NOW…NOW I get a letter from the IRS saying I owe them nearly $1000 and it’s due by February 25th. OR WHAT?! They come and take me to fucking jail?!
I can’t do this anymore. I have never NEVER in my life done anything to deserve ANY OF THIS.I’m done. It’s over. I’m making a plan.
Someone PLEASE TELL ME WHAT THE POINT IS IN STAYING ALIVE ANYMORE. Please.